Who knew that things would be this way! We plan or sometimes we don’t. Either way, life still happens, most times without much say from us. We are not in control. God is! Yes, we are fully aware of this.
Now, if you are not aware of this fact, keep living, and as you go through different tests and trials meant to draw you closer to God, you will begin to see who is really in control. We often struggle with this. We orchestrate and manipulate things to align them to our will and desires. But guess what? God’s will, will prevail, whether we cooperate or not.
The answer, the key, the “what now” that we are seeking, is to do just that, COOPERATE WITH GOD!
What does that mean?
That is definitely easier said than done. Because of sin and our fallen nature, we are in a constant battle with the enemy, satan, but also with ourselves. We trust God. We know that He is faithful and that He will never leave us nor forsake us. Yet, we still struggle. We are anxious and we often worry our way through the day. Life can bring about some challenging situations and we simply want it all resolved immediately. I am a true believer of God’s miraculous power and His ability to do things suddenly, in an instant, if He so desires and works to make things happen that way in our lives. However, often, he chooses to make us wait so that His greater purpose will be manifested in our lives. This waiting period produces the struggle between our will and God’s; between our timing and God’s. It can even produce a wavering in our overall trust in God.
Like at this very moment, and basically through out this entire day, this feeling that I have carried around with me in the pit of my stomach has been overwhelming and almost unbearable. The moving, out of control, pieces of my life have exhausted me. I know God is in control. I know He is there carrying me through. I know my wilderness experience is coming to an end and that my promised land is right over the horizon. I know he has good intentions for my life and that if I continue to wait and continue to focus on Him, He is going to further reveal to me that plan and I will start to see all of the pieces fit together.
Nevertheless, I find myself seemingly not cooperating with God, and I cannot seem to truly shake this feeling that I carry with me when something is troubling me; when my trust is wavering. It’s a constant reminder that true peace, the peace that God offers to me, is eluding me. That is not how God intended for things to be.
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